So remember yesterday how I told you part of the training schedule was a few 10k races. Well I'm about to race 10k in a few hours and I'm freaking out. Like I mentioned yesterday I haven't raced anything under a half marathon distance in over a year and the last time I raced 10k I left everything I had on the course and only beat my p.b. by a minute.
I have been trying to calm my nerves with positive self talk, inner warrior visualization, past life regression (kidding) but I can't calm down. Here's the deal, I have given presentations - albeit not many and always with another co-worker but nonetheless stood up and talked to more than 50 people and not felt this anxiety. I know I'm not going to win this race. In fact there are only 2 age categories 29 and under and 30 and over, so I won't be placing. So what's the deal?
I think I actually put my finger on it a few minutes ago. I am putting myself out there. I know I "put myself out there" here, but if you're reading this chances are I've told you about it or you stumbled across it. I have no illusions about my following on the Internet. But for races, all people have to do is google my name and up pop my results. Bam! There I am. I can't exaggerate these results. They've been measured and I'm accountable for them. Do people really care - I doubt it. Do I care - hell yeah. Those results back me up to being a tough runner. I can say I have ran a 23 minute 5k. Those sites prove it. Its time to go... putting myself on the line.
The day after.....
May I present to you.... the world's smallest medal.
I ended up finishing third in the 30+ age category.
I started this race feeling great at an easy pace. The course was an out and back on a rail trail with some very stone dusty spots. (Yes - I did just invent that term). I cautiously passed all but one female by the first kilometre. I was the second female until 8.5k. I couldn't keep my pace. There were two women chatting away behind me and I let them go. I ended up finishing in 55:07. Not a great time and not a p.b. but this does give me a base to work from. Next race Laurier Loop... will it be easier... doubt it. Will I feel great after.... for sure.